Have you ever been so confused about what to do? I am! I am crazy in love. Let's just call him K. You see I am married to K, for a couple years now. He is the only person other than my children that makes me happy. When we are apart we love each other like before we got married and when we are together we fight constantly over anything and nothing. I want to be with him for the rest of my life but it sometimes gets to the point where we hate everything about each other. We are currently separated and we will meet up and behave like nothing is wrong. We act like that happy married couple we were the day we said I do. I honestly think the roots to all of our relationship problems come from our families. You see I have my mother in my ear telling me all sorts of negative stuff about him, while he has his older sister in his ear telling him all sorts of negative stuff about me. The sad part of it all is what they say about each of us we both know is not even remotely close to the truth. Once someone says something so many times the bad thoughts start running through your mind and it sucks. It is like your being brainwashed into what they believe.
My love for K has not gotten weaker from the day that I realized I loved him to now. In fact it grows stronger everyday. I want nothing more than to have a loving ideal family with this man. I am also so screwed up by what I hear everyday that is negative yet I know is not true. I am scared that maybe I don't actually know him anymore and that maybe I am not seeing what everyone else is seeing, maybe I'm blinded by how much I love him. You know how love is.